Original Poetry By H.R. Beebe

I spent a lifetime waiting for someone to see the real me..

They saw my outward appearance..
They saw my social status…
They saw my awkwardness…
They saw my introverted nature..

They saw their perception of me…

They judge me for my age…
First too young…
Then, too inexperienced…
Now too old…

I waited a lifetime for someone, anyone to see the real me…
Not who they thought I was…
But, the real me…
I’m still waiting…

An Original Poem By H.R.Beebe

Mind is spinning
It’s 3 Am
I wonder where my mind is again
I see the truth hidden in the pain
She said forever
Guess that was today
Love gives way to desire
Money overrides trust
When loyalty is a barter
Care is transactional
Her words are suss
I was lost in the dream
Caught up in the time
She wanted what she wanted
If I don’t pay, then I was out of time
I didn’t matter
Only he designed
Quick, she made clear
If their was no pay
I had no say
She was gone from my life.

An Original Poem By H.R.Beebe

Images in dreams of gold
Wealth I had never dreamed I’d hold
A fate like a tale of old
Of kings and queens, a story to behold

I learned it was a possibility
If I believed , if I could see
Those dreams are not fictions you see
When you can imagine, when you can believe

Paths that open to your desire
Rise above you the highest spire
Desires are simply realities yet seen
Beliefs the gateway to lives yet lived

The secret to learning the key to holding
Is that all that can be already is
You just need to see it clearly
Then, it moves from a belief
To a certainty
This is the gateway
To the real

An Original Poem By H.R.Beebe

I woke to the call
She was dead on the floor
No reason , no respite
She had gone overnight

No parent should see
Their 29 year old daughter leave
They said she couldn’t breathe
Was the reason they gave me

It was a grey Monday
Rain owned the sky
Darkness greeted me
Over a phone line

It’s funny how the silence grows
The loneliness a cord
Binding your aspirations
In a moment, love is gone

In that bitter silence
A realization made clear
The vision of the life you had
Gone with the rain and the tears

Silence is a funny thing
Because it can be loud
When your future is rearranged
Leaving you empty and hollowed out

In the time after you are left to contemplate
How useless it had all been
How cruel was the fate
Though it was a day too late

Desolate in your perspective
Empty in your eyes
Nothing left to say
You walk away without goodbyes

30 years lost in increments
An issue at a time
A young man gave his moments
An old man left to cry

Loneliness doesn’t happen in an instant
Silence is a lullaby
It leaves you sitting in an empty room
Asking the universe, “Why?”

What is that emotion
You swear you feel it
But, it’s a shadow that disappears
When the light of realization hits
Words are just words
When actions need to match
Only silence
When desires override care
Loyalty fades like mist
When demands bring derision
Were you ever really real at all?
Promises become memories
As your ego accends above your actions
Only silence remains
A testament to the fact
You were never here at all
Just a dream
A renewed pain
A continuing fact
Love was never here at all
Just wants and desires
Like leaves in the wind
Gone in an instant
When things got real
As were you…
Is Love a myth?
A ghost spoken about
But never really
Seen.

An Original Poem By H.R.Beebe

In a single breath
Lays the secret
A single moment
Wisdom exist

A knowledge when understood
Reality bends to your desire
Once you see the truth
That the material world

Is not solid at all, but
Indeed, simply energy
Waiting
For a word uttered

Not from a place of scarcity
Or lack
Rather from the perspective
Of abundance
As well as the position

Of possession
In the perspective
All things are given
In that moment

You are aligned

An Original Poem By H.R.Beebe

In silence,  we learn strength
Things a thousand books could never teach
In wonder, we learn from the Source
We are more than simply a mask
Not a nationality
Not a religion
We learn who we really are beyond this place
We strip away the ego, the identity
In silence,  we learn life’s purpose
Our purpose
Not to struggle
Not to fight
We learn abundance is everywhere
Peace comes from within, not without
Happiness is a there always
You just have to embody it
We are more than our beliefs
More than this reality
Much more
Once you learn this , you understand
Regardless of the situation or person
You were never poor, never alone
The universe was always with you
Protecting you
Loving you
It was giving you exactly what you expected
Waiting
For you to understand
Waiting for you to grow
In that moment, you learn the truth
In that moment, the universe smiles
Because
In that moment, you finally understand
The universe never restricted you
Punished you
It was in the moment you finally understood
It was simply a mirror
Reflected back to you
What you were generating
In that moment, you finally see
What having the power to choose really means
The Source was never out there at all
You were simply a localized expression of It
All you experienced of this reality
Was caused by
You

An Original Poem By H.R. Beebe

Lost in my own dream
Aware it is an illusion
As my brain creates a reality
That was simulation
Separate from all the rest
A existence meant just for me
Who am I if everything around me is false
We are yet are not truly aware
Controlling avatars , we are not
Unaware of our true nature
Time and space simply control collars
That regulates us in this place
A matrix meant to imprison us
In loops of waste and abuse
We were meant to experience this reality
We were meant to see it from a specific perspective
Yet, it was twisted, and we were used
Unaware it’s all a lie
A bad dream we repeat
Again and again
Locked in a Doom loop
Until
We finally understand
Who and what we are
Waking up to the truth
The truth is that we had the power to leave it all along
Through wisdom
Through knowledge
That it was our belief
That held us
That was
The ultimate
Truth

An Original Poem By H.R. Beebe

Lost from the beginning
A pain I didn’t live
A power I saw but soon was gone
I stood alone
Amnesia from my first day
The real
I learned is an illusion
It was all a fiction
Just a simulation
I searched for the truth
As the illusion of time moved
I began to see it there
This body, this ego
Like this place wasn’t real
I was more than that
More than the illusion
I was Source
Consciousness
In that realization
I finally understood
Was finally
Free

An Original Poem By H.R. Beebe

Shadows fell
As echos of the past rang
In the dusty remnants
Of the forgotten ruins
Where my heart dwelt
Once in life
Cursed to wander
This forgotten place
My love passed
Into the dark realms
And it is now
Gone…

An Original Poem by H.R. Beebe