Shadows in my mind
Hide my sorrow
Pain a constant reminder
Of what I’ve seen
In decades of life
Random Pursuits I chased it
Desired it
Craved it
Fought and lost
Yet I never found it
I saw others touch it
Taste it
Savor it
I was denied it
I searched the world
Searched the people
Even came close
It escaped me
Like mist at sunrise
A specter there for a fleeting second
Only to evaporate at the first light
Gone… leaving me standing
In a park , as the rain began
Reflecting the truth as the sky
Weeped bitter sweet tears
From darkened clouds
As above , so below
Sadness reflected in stark relief
To show my trials
And failures
My search in vain
The realization of a one-sided affair
As for love… it never died
Because it was never there
To begin with
At all.

An Original Poem By H.R Beebe